Goddess Watching

Goddess Watching by Sheree Burlington on Polyvore.com

 As I prepare for my trip to Ireland, one of the tasks I face is the rewrite of my will. The last time I made one, I was holding a 6 week old infant in my arms. He turned 18 last week.

I expect to return from my trip and continue on with life as usual. If I don't, a notarized copy of my new will is in the bottom drawer of my black file cabinet. A file on my desktop labeled "When I die" contains life insurance, bank account info, notes about my business & other affairs. I created this file shortly after my father died. His fear of death was so terrifying that we tip-toed around it with great care. We avoided asking the questions that will forever remain unanswered. While my Die File - full of instructions and gossip and humor - won't answer all of the questions, it is a running commentary that my friends & family will find useful. Maybe even comforting.

Here is what I see in my mind's eye right now: I'm standing on the stark emptiness of the barren & rocky Burren in Clare. The sun is on my face. It shines from a sky so deep and mysterious and blue that for a moment, am touched by an ancient wisdom that leaves me breathless.